BabyLove here! Anybody else out there need a break? Good God, will these kids beat it for a few minutes? I have no time for myself, all I want to do is drink my coffee in peace, no I don’t want to watch Toy Story 2 for the 100th time, and can’t you stop pooping your pants! OK, I’m stressed, and I’m having a week where I want to crawl into bed and ignore every request that comes out of either of my kids mouths.
Honestly, I love being a mom, but I know I’m not the only mom who occasionally wants to run away in a pair of my old tight jeans, and resume my love affair with tequila, am I? Sometimes I long for just one day when things were super easy, and the world was at my finger tips. I’m feeling washed up, worn out, and guilty.
Today was not a good day at my house. My four year old aggravates my two year old, my two year old screams like a girl at the top of his lungs, my four year old hits the two year old, both the two and four year old end up in time out, repeat 15 times. I’m brushing my teeth, water pressure drops off significantly, I go to see if one of the boys have turned on the water in the kitchen, back door open, hose on, boys clothes soaked, dog going to the bathroom in the neighbor’s yard, and I have to make a split decision-90lb. pooping Doberman or 60 combined pounds of aggravation. Ugh, Doberman wins. Did I mention I got laid off yesterday?
I did a lot of yelling at the kids and at the dogs today, and when things quiet down, I always feel guilty. I have a roof over my head, two happy and HEALTHY boys, and a good husband. In the spirit of the megsmakeup.com event in Colorado, and in the spirit of my awful day, I’d like to tell you this. My husband works 16 hour days some weeks, and these are usually the weeks where I start drinking wine at 5pm. I look forward to the days where he comes home so we can spend a little time together, and so we can share the burden.
This post is for the women who have no one to share the burden with. Specifically, I’d like to dedicate this to my friend of more than 20 years, Gwenn. Her husband is scheduled to deploy overseas to Afghanistan for over a year, and it will be just her and her 5 year old Emma at home. Gwenn, I thought of you today when I had enough. Mike is off tomorrow, so I know I’ll get a break. You won’t. A year is a long time, and I’ll help in any way I can, even if it’s just in knowing that someone is thinking of you often.
Friday, June 4th, is a new day for me, and I would really like to kick it off with a whole lot of positive thoughts and energy. I’m foregoing a review this week, in hopes that we can use this post as a way to help one another. We need some relaxation techniques, pampering tips, and meditation advice! All of those women at Fort Carson, and in towns all around us need a few thoughts, good energy, and kind words channeled their way too.
Who’s with me? What is your top relaxation tip? Do you meditate?